A Down Week

I have had a very low week. I feel like the honeymoon phase of my sobriety has worn off and my meds have either not kicked in or need to be increased. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist on Tuesday. I would like to increase my dosage of Sertraline. I’ve been at 50mg a day for six weeks now. I know it takes quite a bit of time for it to really kick in. Sometimes longer than eight weeks. But I’m not feeling good. I felt positive when I ditched the booze but that has waned. I spent all day in bed sleeping a couple days ago. At least I’m not waking up with a hangover.

I’m back from my trip and the anxieties of my work have come back full strength. I was stressed before I left. Now there is an additional two weeks piled on my desk and my accountants want to have a tax meeting this next Thursday. I’m not ready. I’m going to try to reschedule for the following week with them. I’ve been ignoring phone calls and now have a pretty good list of people I need to call back. One thing at a time. I know I can get through it. I just have to keep reminding myself that. Don’t look at the big pile, get it done piece by piece.

Deep breaths…. This will pass… I know that there will be ups and downs. It’s just hard to see anything in the downs. Even if I can’t see, I can still count. Today marks 46 days of no booze.


9 thoughts on “A Down Week

  1. I just want to say I love your blog. What you’re doing here is courageous and kind. It brings hope indeed. So perhaps your search for it is helping others find it.

  2. I think I may have mentioned this before, but there’s a significant difference between what we know to be true and simply how we feel.

    Fight the good fight, kiddo. You will come out much stronger and healthier on the other side of things. And you’re very much in my daily prayers.

  3. I hope you can get a meds increase and that it suits you. I was only on 50mg for two weeks, going up to 100mg straight away, as my dr planned. It’s been a year and I am just upping to 150 a day. Good luck!

  4. Thank you! I’ll know in a couple hours. I’ve been really happy with my new doctors. I feel that they have been proactive and genuinely care. It’s a nice change to what I’ve experienced in the past with previous physicians.

  5. Thank you! I am doing alright. I’ll be writing a post today or tomorrow. I so appreciate you stopping by to say your thinking of me. I often isolate myself when things are tough. It’s a bad pattern. Seeing your note this morning reminds me that people care and it’s not okay to cut myself off. If I want to heal, I need people in my life who care. I can’t do it alone. You have made my day, and it has only just started. ❤️

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